I am a Run Away

Low and behold the great epihanies at midnight! Here I was trying to tell myself that I don't need a man in my life. I run as far as I can when anyone tries to get close. I have finally figured out some reasoning as to why I feel this way and what I want to do to change it.
One of the greatest lines of our generation was said so recent, most persons have missed out on it. "you alone have ambition, but the key to everything is collaboration," meaning we should help out one another. The ones who have figured this out have already made it! Why can't I find people who want to work just as much as I do?
Not even that, how about someone who wants the same things I do and in the long run, we actually do support eachother?
All this time I was making myself think I didn't need anyone to get things done that I wanted to do. My life has been a 3 hr movie with no hard work and no ending. So what do I need to do?
Friends and family of myself and people I know, and love should come together and do something great!
I can't even begin to tell you how insignificant I feel wanting to be an actress, almost all my life, yet the people who are close to me only see it as a new "flavor of the week" type deal and I am here to prove them wrong. Though why can't we all work together?
Where are my film making friends who love to write and have an amazing story to tell? Where are my marketing friends who make the best websites and want to do that for a living? Where are all my musician friends who want to be in a band, and play live shows just to play? Where are all those people who are donating to causes by themselves?
LETS HELP EACH OTHER OUT!
Seriously, I know I'm great at somethings and horrible at others, so where I fall short, others should be strong.

So lets all collaborate and do something big, bc we are only here for a little while so why not make it count?

I want someone who needs me and I them.

thanks for reading,

xoxo

Want to Write My Love.

i love this world, i love this time.
all is different, all is fine.
the things that matter most,
lost matter at all.
you need, you want, you feel, you lost.
for the moments missed and the ones you cant live without.
the one thing i wish is the first time i doubt.
never given a chance, yet loved you fully.
felt the part, but never enough.
two separate births brought together by passion.
years and years will follow. ill sideline the thought, you'll fake yours until you see.
like breakfast at tiffany's, the story will never end

xoxo

Love and Pink's

The day was somewhat of a waste, minus the small txt message from the love of my life, but then the night started.

i was unprepared, embarrassed and regretful. but then i got up to do my scene and the man that was critiquing us giggled and said "that was amazing."

this whole acting thing felt like just another flavor of the week in my world of "i can do it all," but right at that moment i knew that i have the brightest future in this business.

then, for the very first time since i've moved to LA, i went to Pink's hot dogs with Brittany. i squealed out of the car and jumped around like it was christmas and i knew i was getting all 5 spice girl dolls this year. it was amazing! they do need to get collectors cups like hot dog heaven in orlando, just sayin!

then we headed to blockbuster for our weekly ritual after monday class and get 5 new randomly decided movies. then my dream guy decides to call me. (its a long story, but we rarely talk, so this is huge.) knows i love elton john, for some reason, and he called me just so i could here it, im guessing while he was at a show. but it doesnt matter. he loves me and its great.

giddy from compliments that a well know casting director bestowed upon me and my future husband letting me know im the one. its all so fairly tale and indescribable.

night babies xoxo

"Call Me Dead"

Call Me Dead from Andrew Stoneham on Vimeo.

A SMALL VIDEO I DID IN FLORIDA TO START MY CAREER AS A HORROR FILM QUEEN.  haha

The Editor

It's not everyday you find someone like me.

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Where O Where Can He Be?

Aside for the complete lack of love in my current living area, I have a ton of it in another state.  (this is not sex life)

Although there are many a great guy in los angeles, I still feel unhitched to let anyone in and this goes for everyone I know.  You may have been "the one" once, but if I don't talk to you know or tell you how much I love you once a month, I am sorry, but its not you!

There is a reason I have been avoiding the "relationship game" here in California.  Does anyone really know their soul mate?  Seriously, its a big thing, and awfully true for the strong hearted woman I am to even think that I could be loved past a bed sheet.  But for those of you who reaaaallly know me.  I do love someone.  I've tried to embrace it, I've tried to get rid of it, I've driven across the country 4 times and 2 of those times were for this person.  Why go thru life not taking chances?  Deep down I know and have always known he was it.

Anyone else who isn't a character in a movie know what thats like?




On  side note, I am starting the process of writing and producing my own TV show.  It's a huge leap, but I'd rather fall knowing I tried to be great, instead of never getting past the gate due to fear of repercussions.  Right?


So I will be back with more news on that probably by the end of the week.

ps has anyone seen "Make it or Break it?"  If you ever wanted to know what life was like in my high school years, this show is the prequel to my life now lol.


xoxox

PS. Just because you "know" someone, doesn't stop them from talking shit about you, especially if you are at fault.  Think about it.

"Things I hate, scratch that, Things I find Hilarious"

1.  Girls who come to LA to find a husband.  They're not looking for that here, why are you?
2.  Everyone outside "Hollywood" is not white.
3.  Bloggers who are substantially awful at grammar.
4.  Lists of boyfriends.
5.  Rare, but true, Virgins in LA.  idk, I feel like its a paradox?
6.  The "Man Phrase"- "No M.A.A.M"  = No Musicians, Artists, Actors or Models.  Huge LAWLS!!!
7.  This list.  I laughed the whole way through.
8.  Personal Opinions.  (still laughing)
9.  Being "Defriended" on facebook.  "Defriended" is not an actual word, but is being added to the Websters dictionary in 2011.
10.  Reality.  Life is lived better when it is interpreted through Art.
11.  People who force a personality and/or sarcasm.
12.  The Woman who founded EBAY is running for California Governor this year.
13.  The fact that I could even put 13(most of which were inspired by one person) things together!

Enjoy LA


xoxo