Unsettled

The trick is when you let other people, who you've gotten to know for a couple months, into your life without taking a quiz or a bar exam(which, btw, is a fantastic idea!), and they end up doing things you didn't think we're humanly possible. Such as hurt you.

'This can't be, it took us so long to even get to know each other, why would other people say that about us?' There, right there... OTHER people.

Though I am over it, mostly. The hardest part I've come to realize is the couple of people who involved themselves without asking. Then you find out they tell your closest friend a bunch of crap that didn't even happen. This part is not only hilarious, but frustrating at the same time. Although it is obvious why I received so many gifts.

Furthermore, I've decided that's it, enough with letting people believe they are liked. If you feel the cold shoulder or a hint of indescribable sarcasm, you, my not so good friend, are not someone I like.

The past is the past, yes, but when you hear that you've been wronged too many times by the same person, it's time to let them know, for your own benefit. Who gives a fuck how they feel afterwards, they are the ones who lied and cheated.
Duh...

A Little Lonely Lesson

After a breakup there are a few choices one has.  

1.  Realize the lesson you learned from loving that person and move on, or 

2.  Realize the person you are giving up might be you... 

I'm not sure why my relationship got so bad.  It was emotionally trying.  After a year with my partner I had gone out and had a couple different jobs and got distracted with work.  It lessened our time together and I slowly grew out of love, but I stayed with him because I made him happy.  

This is three weeks after we broke up after one and a half years together.  I feel like I've made a terrible mistake, will I get over him? Was it a good choice to leave someone who I thought I wasn't attracted to?  I find myself alone a lot now and I am trying to get used to it, but maybe I just needed a break.  I just want to text him and talk.  I don't know if I should be ignoring him so we both have a chance to get over each other or we will keep talking to get to know each other again.

We were supposed to be getting engaged this Christmas so everything is out of whack.