A Note.

I never really care to vent, because I usually keep a pretty cool head all the time. I am a diffuser.  A situation diffuser.  I know my new job may put me into a lot of crazy situations, but I need to set some things straight.

I may not have picked the most likable girls to be friends with, but everyone else smokes weed a lot more than I do and/or is busy doing other things or just isn't at my level(not saying its higher or lower, just saying.)  I have moved in with one of the Go Gos, and I want to be here.  She is just a hot head.  She doesn't listen to anyone and talks over everyone, usually saying how much she doesn't understand a situation or how everyone around her is wrong and how she has to say some snide comment every time I try to get us out of a situation.  Myself, needs no defending, but I am tired of defending someone who is morally wrong most of the time.  I almost got fired from a job that I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR, because she wouldn't listen to our boss, I just so happen to be there and was understanding, but couldn't actually say anything because they all were talking over each other!

I am not a trouble maker, I don't like being late to anything, and I would never jeopardize my role at the Whisky.

A side note:  The second night we had ever worked, my boss entrusted me with the role of "leader" and unfortunately I was the only one in the room who heard her say so.  I didn't want to seem snooty to all the other girls so I did my best to tell them how the night was going to go.  Too bad everyone's ego got wild.  Two girls were talking away from each other, no one actually paid attention to what I told them, so everyone did their own thing and, of course, we get in trouble for messing up.  Who got blamed, me, but everyone would have listened if they knew my Boss put me in charge.  Without giving me a chance, she immediately took my power, that I never really had, away and gave it to one of the girls who was  freaking out.  AGAIN, in this situation I never lost my mind or got mad.  It was unfair. And I would make a damn good leader, even though I do it anyway while at work, I just wish I was treated that way.

Moving on, we had to each make our own "FAN PAGES" on Facebook so people won't stalk us, but become fans of our dancing and come to more shows to see us.  Makes sense.  Though while me and my friend were getting a "talking to" I said, "why hasn't anyone else made their "FAN" page yet?"  She lied to me to make me feel bad, and said everyone had.  Lies.  Four of us have, three of us have yet to make theirs... Thanks Boss, I wanna be a star, but I am pissed that you said that.

I want this more than anything and I will fight for my spot on this team, I will be the leader and I will be absolutely humble about it.  I am nice, sincere and I love to dance.  This is what I have been wanting to do my whole life, I just couldn't make sense of it til now.

So if you are listening, reading or anything, I worked for this, and will continue working for this.  I will not be pushed around.